Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Disappointment
Before I start this entry, I know I'll offend certain ppl in a way or so.. But I juz cannot stand it anymore and I had to get this off my chest using blogging style..
Sometimes it's really disappointing to have to hear news from other frens rather than fren whom you thought is closer to.. As I was trying to persuade huang last nite to stay for the dec chalet, he suddenly told me that clarise is going.. After that I had a slight argument with wanyi via smses, though she kept saying pai seh and stuff for not informing.. Seriously it's rather disappointing since the chalet is not meant to be a class gathering!?! And it's not that I dun welcome her to join, but the thing is I felt that perhaps my opinions could be consulted first? She said that it's nan zuo for her and von to hide it from clarise about the chalet coz they always hang out together nowadays.. And that she'd asked yuyun about her views on this before actually inviting clarise.. But how about the rest of us? Yuyun's view doesnt represent the rest of us ritez? Even if clarise dont mind joining us and thus we shouldnt mind her presence, you could have at the very least, do the INFORMING? To think I had to find out this news from huang and it is seriously disappointing.. Perhaps other ppl may think that I'm making a big fuss out of this small matter.. But com'on, that is the basic courtesy alrite.. Because this chalet is intended to be a gathering of a group of CLOSER frens.. And perhaps we should have the rights to know who else is joining besides the usual gang?? I know that we're not as close as we were last time, but at the very least not to this extent? I really had a urge to juz go and "show face" last nite u know.. Because I felt as if it is THEIR chalet now.. And no longer OURS.. But at the same time I know that this is the rare opportunity for us to get-together and have fun.. And I understand it is undeniable that ppl have to change to adapt to situations.. Juz like us, we're no longer in the same sch, do not attend the same class and do not do things together anymore.. That's the reality of life and it'll remain this way in future.. But at the very least we should try to maintain the kind of bond that we used to have, isnt it? And it is during this gathering time that we get to have a chance to do it, isnt it? And frankly speaking I dun really favor the bfs-tag-along idea.. Coz I think it'll juz defeat the purpose of the whole thing.. Anyway as I'd already told her last nite that since she'd already asked clarise along, then so be it.. But I can't help but feel a sense disappointment regarding the whole incident..
Sometimes it's really disappointing to have to hear news from other frens rather than fren whom you thought is closer to.. As I was trying to persuade huang last nite to stay for the dec chalet, he suddenly told me that clarise is going.. After that I had a slight argument with wanyi via smses, though she kept saying pai seh and stuff for not informing.. Seriously it's rather disappointing since the chalet is not meant to be a class gathering!?! And it's not that I dun welcome her to join, but the thing is I felt that perhaps my opinions could be consulted first? She said that it's nan zuo for her and von to hide it from clarise about the chalet coz they always hang out together nowadays.. And that she'd asked yuyun about her views on this before actually inviting clarise.. But how about the rest of us? Yuyun's view doesnt represent the rest of us ritez? Even if clarise dont mind joining us and thus we shouldnt mind her presence, you could have at the very least, do the INFORMING? To think I had to find out this news from huang and it is seriously disappointing.. Perhaps other ppl may think that I'm making a big fuss out of this small matter.. But com'on, that is the basic courtesy alrite.. Because this chalet is intended to be a gathering of a group of CLOSER frens.. And perhaps we should have the rights to know who else is joining besides the usual gang?? I know that we're not as close as we were last time, but at the very least not to this extent? I really had a urge to juz go and "show face" last nite u know.. Because I felt as if it is THEIR chalet now.. And no longer OURS.. But at the same time I know that this is the rare opportunity for us to get-together and have fun.. And I understand it is undeniable that ppl have to change to adapt to situations.. Juz like us, we're no longer in the same sch, do not attend the same class and do not do things together anymore.. That's the reality of life and it'll remain this way in future.. But at the very least we should try to maintain the kind of bond that we used to have, isnt it? And it is during this gathering time that we get to have a chance to do it, isnt it? And frankly speaking I dun really favor the bfs-tag-along idea.. Coz I think it'll juz defeat the purpose of the whole thing.. Anyway as I'd already told her last nite that since she'd already asked clarise along, then so be it.. But I can't help but feel a sense disappointment regarding the whole incident..
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:14 pm
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